Two years have pass, since I took this huge step. Today I still feel great. I know I've made some bad nutrition choices on my journey, but I am not short of keeping strong. Everyday I struggle and fight, to keep healthy in this world, full of bad choices. I still keeping strong at 180 pounds. It could be better. I still need to loose about 30 more pounds. But I am content with weighting less than 200. I don't remember the last time I was under 200 pounds, therefore I am happy. I wear size 10 in pants, which is a big different, seeing that I was size 24W two years ago. I have gain many friends in this journey, I've also lost many. I learned that the world it's a very shallow place. Looks matter too much to people. People make fun of big woman, in the cruelest ways. I am no longer the fat girl, that was included in events, just so I didn't left out. I am the girl that has to be active, and be happy with myself being awkward and not have many friends. I am no longer the girl guys will just friend zone. I am the girl that has to show self respect, and look pass the looks, and wear a paper bag so they can see me for who I truly am. I am not girl, that will take extra food and make jokes of my weight. I am the girl that has to watch what she eats. I am not the girl that people will call beautiful just to help my self-esteem. I am the girl, that its beautiful, inside and out, and I believe it. I am not the girl that will avoid pictures. I am the girl that love posing and looking at the mirror. I am happy with the person, I've become. Yes I am still full of insecurities, Who isn't? But I love every piece of myself. Wrinkly, loose skin, saggy arms and not so perky breasts, that's what I have, that's what I love, because I feel healthy inside.
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