Green Tea

I am not a fan of any tea except chai tea. So since today my boyfriend, has to start doing a clearing diet, I decided to support him, and drinking the same stuff he drinks. Well we went to Starbucks, and he ordered hot green tea. The taste for me, its just hot water with a few leaves on it. That's the taste, is not complete shit, but it is tolerable. I has 0 calories, which is a big difference from my Caramel Brulee from last night. I am usung Fitness Track to track my calories, and I must say, I regret stop using it. It really puts into perspective, how bad I've been doing.Granola bar fro breakfast, green tea for a drink, and maybe another granola bar for lunch. Dinner might be a little heavier, However tomorrow will be out complete liquid diet. I really care about my well being and having someone with me that can do this thins without copains its very awesome Than You +Scott Bonnar .

Celebrating Two years of my Gastric Bypass, The best decision I've ever made.

Two  years have pass, since I took this huge step. Today I still feel great. I know I've made some bad nutrition choices on my journey, but I am not short of keeping strong. Everyday I struggle and fight, to keep healthy in this world, full of bad choices. I still keeping strong at 180 pounds. It could be better. I still need to loose about 30 more pounds. But I am content with weighting less than 200. I don't remember the last time I was under 200 pounds, therefore I am happy. I wear size 10 in pants, which is a big different, seeing that I was size 24W two years ago. I have gain many friends in this journey, I've also lost many. I learned that the world it's a very shallow place. Looks matter too much to people. People make fun of big woman, in the cruelest ways. I am no longer the fat girl, that was included in events, just so I didn't left out. I am the girl that has to be active, and be happy with myself being awkward and not have many friends. I am no longer the girl guys will just friend zone. I am the girl that has to show self respect, and look pass the looks, and wear a paper bag so they can see me for who I truly am. I am not girl, that will take extra food and make jokes of my weight. I am the girl that has to watch what she eats. I am not the girl that people will call beautiful just to help my self-esteem. I am the girl, that its beautiful, inside and out, and I believe it. I am not the girl that will avoid pictures. I am the girl that love posing and looking at the mirror. I am happy with the person, I've become. Yes I am still full of insecurities, Who isn't? But I love every piece of myself. Wrinkly, loose skin, saggy arms and not so perky breasts, that's what I have, that's what I love, because I feel healthy inside.