Green Tea

I am not a fan of any tea except chai tea. So since today my boyfriend, has to start doing a clearing diet, I decided to support him, and drinking the same stuff he drinks. Well we went to Starbucks, and he ordered hot green tea. The taste for me, its just hot water with a few leaves on it. That's the taste, is not complete shit, but it is tolerable. I has 0 calories, which is a big difference from my Caramel Brulee from last night. I am usung Fitness Track to track my calories, and I must say, I regret stop using it. It really puts into perspective, how bad I've been doing.Granola bar fro breakfast, green tea for a drink, and maybe another granola bar for lunch. Dinner might be a little heavier, However tomorrow will be out complete liquid diet. I really care about my well being and having someone with me that can do this thins without copains its very awesome Than You +Scott Bonnar .

Celebrating Two years of my Gastric Bypass, The best decision I've ever made.

Two  years have pass, since I took this huge step. Today I still feel great. I know I've made some bad nutrition choices on my journey, but I am not short of keeping strong. Everyday I struggle and fight, to keep healthy in this world, full of bad choices. I still keeping strong at 180 pounds. It could be better. I still need to loose about 30 more pounds. But I am content with weighting less than 200. I don't remember the last time I was under 200 pounds, therefore I am happy. I wear size 10 in pants, which is a big different, seeing that I was size 24W two years ago. I have gain many friends in this journey, I've also lost many. I learned that the world it's a very shallow place. Looks matter too much to people. People make fun of big woman, in the cruelest ways. I am no longer the fat girl, that was included in events, just so I didn't left out. I am the girl that has to be active, and be happy with myself being awkward and not have many friends. I am no longer the girl guys will just friend zone. I am the girl that has to show self respect, and look pass the looks, and wear a paper bag so they can see me for who I truly am. I am not girl, that will take extra food and make jokes of my weight. I am the girl that has to watch what she eats. I am not the girl that people will call beautiful just to help my self-esteem. I am the girl, that its beautiful, inside and out, and I believe it. I am not the girl that will avoid pictures. I am the girl that love posing and looking at the mirror. I am happy with the person, I've become. Yes I am still full of insecurities, Who isn't? But I love every piece of myself. Wrinkly, loose skin, saggy arms and not so perky breasts, that's what I have, that's what I love, because I feel healthy inside.

Broke the weight stall!

Although I been loosing inches; I was a size 16 in June 2014 and now I'm a size 12, maybe less (my pants are getting loose again) I finally lost some weight on the scale. Yay! I'm at 182 out of 300. That being said; I been experiencing lots of pain due to the Lupus and Rheumathoid arthirithis. The doctor prescribed me Prednisone for the time being (supposedly makes you gain weight) I been feeling better on my pain threshold. I also been taking lots of Tylenol arthritis pain doses. I been keeping up with all my vitamins, and taking the extra B-12 and Iron. I have also started to see a Psychiatric for my axiety and depression. I'm currently on Lexapro and Klonopin. I have seen a tremendous difference on my sleep pattern and tolerance levels. I been going to sleep early, and waking up early. I been able to concetrate more on things that matter and actually organize my thought more efficiently. So I say; IT WORKS!  I rode a bike! I was in tremendous pain afterwards but it was fun! I wish I could do it all the time. I'm currently experiencing symtoms of asthma. I haven't had any asthma for years now.  Not sure if it's because I am back to living in a warmer climate. When I used to live in Puerto Rico, I was sick all the time. Maybe the pollen it's causing it. However I refuse to go back to live up north. Anyways, I always turn this into a health update.

In other notes! I bought my first 2 piece bathing suit!!!! And it's a peachy color. Not my usual granny black skirt bathing suit or pants and shirt! I'm very happy about that! 

 Size XL on top and large on bottom!!!

It's an amazing feeling! 

I went out with my friend the other day too, and I looked so good on the dress! ! 

My confidence level has gone sky high! Just saying!

Note: ALWAYS use fitness pal to track all the food you eat! If you don't, you will over eat. This is something I learned the hard way! 

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115 pounds gone! Gastric Bypass Success

You are Special and Unique

Remember, how you got to this spot in your life. Remember the hardships you have endure. Remember the things you have accomplish this far. Do Not Compare, your success to others, because all that will do is get you down. It is impossible to measure your uniqueness to others, that's when we begin to fail. We tried to compete with other people and we forget we are all may so different but so  very similar.

I had find myself staring at another woman's picture, seen how skinny they got, and how well they have done, and I have found myself feeling jealous of their success.However, just recently I realized, I need to see how far I have become and how happy i really feel with myself. Not looking at how other's look, and focusing on myself. I lost over 100 pounds in 1 year. I am proud. I went from 300 plus to 185. I went from a size 24/26W to a size 12, smallest since Middle School, and guess what? I am proud of myself.

My advice to you?

Do not look at that 300 pounds lady, that is 130 now... Do not look at that lady that wear size 6 now, Yes be happy for them, but look at your timeline. Look at how far you have come, look at the people that thought you were going to fail, and laugh. Look at your new cute clothes, and smile. Look at how can you cross your legs, and smile. Look at how you can shop on regular stores, and smirk. Who cares if you didn't reach the insanely low goal.... that makes you practically a super model. YOU look fantastic. And the best part, you did it all by yourself.

I AM HAPPY WITH MY FLABBY ARMS, BECAUSE THEY REMIND ME AT HOW FAR I HAVE COME.

I AM HAPPY WITH MY FLABBY TUMMY, BECAUSE IT REMINDS ME OF HOW BIG AND TIGHT IT WAS.

I AM HAPPY WITH MY WRINKLY BUT AND TIGHTS, BECAUSE I CAN NOW FIT IN SKINNY JEANS.

I AM HAPPY WITH MY SAGGY BOOBS, BECAUSE I CAN FIT IN A SMALLER REGULAR BRA FROM VICTORIA SECRET.

BUT OVERALL, I AM HAPPY I LOST OVER 100 POUNDS BECAUSE PEOPLE DIDN'T THINK I COULD DO IT. AND NOW I DON'T HAVE TO SLEEP WITH A MACHINE. 

The battle continues!

1 year 2 months 

My battle continues 

Since July, I have not loss anything at all. And I'm part to blame. I haven't gain anything either, but I know I'm doing bad. I been sneaking chocolate. I been weak. I think this behavior has started because the pain in my body has gotten worst since I reached 185 pounds. I feel everything in my body. It's hard to walk and it's hard to sit, as you might remember on previous entries I Have Lupus and other health problems.  I try to excersize but it's hard. Between depression and pain it has become a daily challenge. I know some of the the things that got me to 300 pounds are happening again. And I refuse to go back. So I keep doing little bit of the excersize I can. Like parking really far at Walmart so I have to walk and dancing to one song before my shower. Today I it's day 3 of a Lupus Flare, I feel terrible but I must continue. I have class to attend. I refuse to let this defeat me and end up in disability. One of the reasons as you can remember, it's that I did not want to end up disable.... So I am not letting this defeat me! I will get up another day do what I can and continue. If I have to eat one chocolate to get me trough my train wreck of a day I will. But I'm not going to fall back to soda and greasy fast food. Because I have been through so much with this surgery that everything I did will not become in vain. I will rise again. And loose this last 20 pounds to reach my goal! 

If I can do it, you can too! 

Watch my before and after video: 

http://youtu.be/PCTUagraiD0