6 months, 102 pounds gone! Updates!

Six Months!!! Yay, half way to my year. Once you become healthier you find out that your life becomes so busy. There is so much more energy flowing through my body, I wake up around 8am, and stay up all day doing different things. When I was much bigger, I used to wake up sometimes as late as 2pm, unless i had to work, and even then I always requested night shift, because i couldn't wake up early because i never get enough sleep.

There are so many things that I enjoy now. I love getting dress up and putting on makeup to go anywhere outside the house. That's how i used to be when i was in high school. It is fun to have the self esteem to do things outside your home. I cant wait to wear a bathing suit. I want to own at least, 5 different ones. I can wear jewelry I couldn't wear before, because my neck was to big or my wrist were to fat. I love shopping now. I love doing things, I love talking about my weight and about all the changes that are happening within me. I see that people notice me more. In part it is sad because, you realize how shallow the world is. But, it is OK. I still me. I still enjoy playing video games, watch super heroes movies and scary movies. I am a geek that loves fashion that's all.  He are some before and afters =)

I still have a long way to come from 296, I am now 194, that's 102 pounds gone! That's a 10th grader gone out of my body =P  

My realistic goal weight it's 150, my ideal weight it's 130. When I reach 150, i will consider that a miracle. I am fine right now. I could stop loosing weight today, as long as I never gain those 100 pounds again I will be happy with myself. I do have a lot of loose skin, that I'm working with. That's a lot of weight just hanging out of me, that cost a lot of money to remove. Money I DO NOT have. But I think I can work on it, and at least diminish it a little bit. I am moving in 7 days to the south of US, and I will be closer to the beach and very nice weather most of the year, so I believe all the sun, and warmth will do me some good.

I will update again when I move and I reach 180 pounds. BTW, I realize that every time, a week before my menstraul period, I get very hungry for sweets. Since I cannot have sweets, I eat some Weight Watchers Creme Cakes. Those are yummy just  9g of sugar per cake. I also like The Belvita Soft Baked cookies. As far as protein, I been having the hardest time. Specially because protein it is so expensive and working with a small budget, and trying to get protein that you actually like it is hard so I recently Fount Atkins Mocha Latte Protein. It is Awesome! 

In another note. Do you remember why I started this journey? Well my brother is back in the hospital again. Result that he does not want to get this surgery done. He has put on more weight and he is very sick. They had put a trachea tube on him and now its barely working. He still cant breath at night, he refuses to go to doctors, as a matter of fact he has not gone to a doctor in 8 months. I have talk to him, I have show him what this surgery can do for him, he just don't want to do it. He says he can do it without the surgery, but he also doesn't try to do it. Sometimes, I think he just wants to die. I had a deep conversation with a family member the other day, and I realize. All i can do its give advice. An adult need their own motivations to do things and they have to make it happen on their own. Just because something works out for me, doesn't mean that other people will want to do it. They need to WANT it. I really hope they if he comes out out of this one, it becomes a wake up call for him and, maybe, just maybe I can have my brother back like he used to be.