Pre-op Diet

I am 7 days away from my partial liquid diet and  21 days away from surgery. My surgery date is November 26, 2013.In the mean time, I am struggling with the Cpap machine. It is getting a little longer to get used to using a mask to sleep at night. Also my mouth gets very dry, but I called my supplier and I think I found a solution ( a chin strap) hopefully when it arrives it helps me get an actually good night sleep.

Anyways my pre-op partial liquid diet starts in 11/12 the day after my pre-op visit. The diet consist of two weeks of mostly liquids as follow: Glucose Controlled Boost or Ensure High Protein shake drinks
8am shake
10am shake
noon shake
2pm shake
5pm meal ( 4-5 oz of lean meat and 1-2 cups of fresh non starchy vegetable
bedtime shake
and 64oz of water, which i think is going to be the hardest thing to do.

I have lost a total of 25 pounds since i started this journey. And this is just the beginning. I mostly struggle with energy and finding fighting cravings. Now only 21 more day for my new life to start.

Fight

I understand now why so many of you want your op private and don't tell everyone. I told everyone and I even have a blog for it, but know I find myself defending my decision at every turn. People are not well inform about this surgery and they have so many misconceptions and thoughts behind it. It's like a battle for me now. People keep saying to me "you don't need it" or "you can die" or why don't you just do this and that. I'm getting a little sick of it, defending this has become my work. Even some of my relative have turn against me. "If you lost 25 pounds on your own you can so more" they have no idea what really goes into this, they have no idea why are we doing this, they are clueless on why we NEED this. But as long as I know, I guess I can keep fighting and eventually win my own battle. If it were so easy don't you think I would of been skinny already!? I mean how hard is to go and find information before you go judging a person.


UPDATE:
I also got my Cpap machine yesterday. I tried it out for 5 hours last night but I couldn't fall asleep. I took it off, fell asleep, woke up and used it for a few hours before waking up completely   I am hoping tonight its a better night and that I am getting used to it. 

Why do I love myself?

Why do I love myself?

Because.....

I always pick myself up when I fall down.

When I cry, I can wipe my own tears.

My children can look up to me.

I never give up trying.

When I want something I am determined to get it.

I know when to get help.

I know that is OK to cry, even for small things, because it shows that I am human.

I learn fast.

I am doing things to better my life, physically and mentally.

I know what my limits are. 

When I don't like something, I simply stop doing it.

I realize there is no point on doing something you hate, its bad for my health. 

When everyone is focused on striving and being better than others, I focused on making myself happy and being myself. 

I accept others as they are.

I listen to my children

I give second chances, sometimes thirds.

I don't allow other to put me down anymore.

I am smart.

I love life even thou sometimes I feel like mine is not so great.

When I think its over, I find a reason to continue.

I trust until someone betrays me.

I have lovely cheeks.

I have try many things and learned them well. 

I am organize when i need to be. 

I observe and sense people’s feelings.

I can make time for others even if its just one text. 

I can hide pain and dislikes behind my smile, but just so I don't hurt any ones feelings.

I take others feelings into consideration. 

New Facebook Book

I created a facebook group with the idea that We can share our accomplishments, pictures, stories anything about of surgeries. Everyone that is thinking of having the weight loss surgery is welcome to come join us, and share your story and your accomplishments.

The group is secret so you can't search it nor see it unless you are a member. Therefore you will have to send me a message with your email, so I can invite you to the group. The invite will be sent via email and then you will be able to join the group. No one can see your postings unless they are in the group. 

You can also post your email and I will send you and invite.

Surgery DATE...?

I started a new job at a hospital, Been there a couple of weeks, and I love it. I can see myself doing it for a long time even retiring from it. I also been working on my surgery requirements since June. Today at work I received a call from the surgeon's office. They want to schedule my appointment for November 26th. Two days before Thanksgiving. I am very happy. However, I either get the surgery and loose my job or keep the surgery and don't do the surgery.  I am a temporary employee. They need me for the holidays. Chance are that of course If they need to downsize or anything , I am the first one to go. However all the other temps in the department had really good luck and have now even permanent positions. My dilema is, I can either just work until my surgery, leave and when I am all well try to apply again or forget about the surgery for a while. But then again is my health right. Me not having serious medical problems and not being severely obese is a priority right.. I am very sad, but I guess I will work until I cant work no more, and continue with my surgery arrangements. There are plenty of other jobs out there, and only one of me.  So I have to take care of my body, before I can take care of anyone else. So yes, November 26th it is. =)  By the way, so far I lost 16 pounds!

SLEEP APNEA.... CPAP Machine

I went to test the Cpap Machine, and it wasn't too bad.  I actually slept good. Beside all the cords hanging from my body and the mask in my nose, I slept like a baby.  I was actually well rested, but them I got home and slept the next day and and back to feeling tired. I think my doctor supposed to prescribe me a machine to use until I loose all this weight. ... Supposedly getting more oxygen at night and a better sleep is going to help me lose the weight faster so I don't become sepsis. 

Surgery Date coming soon!!!

I went to the second appointment yesterday. It went great. I was complimented on how I fast I got everything done. They have never seen anyone move so quick on the process and achieve so much in so little time. I am very proud of myself.  I had a list to complete and I did all of it:

• Attend a information meeting
• Attend a Support group
• Get a letter of medical necessity
• Get a sleep study
• Get psychiatric clearance
• EKG
• Loose 10% of my target weight
• Complete a food journal
• Get blood work done
• Get nutrition class

It seems like not a lot but to get people moving you got to e persistent other wise they will take their time, sometimes they are just busy but if you really interested and really want this they will see it and help you out along the way. I am looking at a October date or early November. Two weeks before I start a liquid diet then  a week before surgery I am getting a colonoscopy and a endoscopy. Then I start my new life.