My battle continues
Since July, I have not loss anything at all. And I'm part to blame. I haven't gain anything either, but I know I'm doing bad. I been sneaking chocolate. I been weak. I think this behavior has started because the pain in my body has gotten worst since I reached 185 pounds. I feel everything in my body. It's hard to walk and it's hard to sit, as you might remember on previous entries I Have Lupus and other health problems. I try to excersize but it's hard. Between depression and pain it has become a daily challenge. I know some of the the things that got me to 300 pounds are happening again. And I refuse to go back. So I keep doing little bit of the excersize I can. Like parking really far at Walmart so I have to walk and dancing to one song before my shower. Today I it's day 3 of a Lupus Flare, I feel terrible but I must continue. I have class to attend. I refuse to let this defeat me and end up in disability. One of the reasons as you can remember, it's that I did not want to end up disable.... So I am not letting this defeat me! I will get up another day do what I can and continue. If I have to eat one chocolate to get me trough my train wreck of a day I will. But I'm not going to fall back to soda and greasy fast food. Because I have been through so much with this surgery that everything I did will not become in vain. I will rise again. And loose this last 20 pounds to reach my goal!
If I can do it, you can too!
Watch my before and after video:
