My 9th month Update. Well it has been 9 months since my surgery and Over a year since I started this journey. I have lost a total of 111 pounds. It has been hard, I hit so many stalls. So from 300 pounds I reached 185. That’s a lot. I have to keep reminding myself that’s a lot. Charts and society still says I am obese, and that gets to me sometimes. However, I am 100 plus pounds lighter. I went from size 26 to size 12, that has to count for something. It does counts, but sometimes I forget how hard I have worked to get here. Its like I keep seeing the imperfections. The saggy loose skin, or those 20 pounds that i need to loose to just be “overweight”. Sometimes, I forget that my 10 year old weights 90 pounds and I lost 111, that means I lost in pounds a whole healthy 10 year old (lol).
So to update, my favorite food was American Chinese Food, and now, BLEH, I cannot stand it. It makes me sick eating it and looking at it. The oils are to much for me. (total different story with native Chinese food, which its mostly steam food rice and veggies) I cannot eat anything fried, because I get sick. (it is a good thing because it keeps me away from even trying) Sugar makes me sleepy. Yes, ain't that weird. Anything with 5grams of sugar or more, I go into a “comma” I fall asleep for at least an hour. So I try to stay away from Sugary stuff, I try sugar free and that gives me horrible gas. (can’t win) So I am trying to stay away from sugar free candy and pasties, but its hard since I used to eat sweets all the time for so many years. When the sweet tooth attacks, I discovered Low sugar Frosted Flakes, OMG, my savior. Low sugar versions of my favorites are awesome.
Before I wouldn't wear any clothes that were sleeveless, now, its the same. My under arms are very “droopy” from all the weight lost and all the excess skin. My abdomen its very wrinkly and my inner tights as well. I can feel my rib cage and collar bone, and my hip bones and all my bones for that matter. I no longer have to wear wide shoes, just regular size, my ring size went from size 11 to 8.5 I can wear all bangles and watches.
On another note, since food was my addiction, I have taken on another addiction, Shopping. I have a problem with Online shopping.I keep taking on crafts....
I also developed severe anxiety, I hate going out alone, and I i go into panic when there are to many people around me. (not sure why)
Oh also, you know that doctors usually say “you pain its due to all the weight you are carrying” Well, I truly believe they are wrong. All this weight gone and all my pains from my joints and my back are getting worst. My coccyx bone “tail bone” always hurt when i sit down for short periods of time: that seems to be very common withing people that has had the weight loss surgery. My sleep apnea its relived, but my depression its worst. I feel it creeping in all the time, but I refuse to take more pills. My friend recently suggested to take 5-HTP, so I started to take that yesterday so lets see if it helps. I am dependent of Iron and multiple vitamins for life, and I continue to have to drink 64 ounces of water a day.
The biggest problem its to learn to love my new me. I have to get pass the imperfections and focus on all the good I have. Maybe because of all the years of people putting me down because of my weight even when I wasn't Severely obese, maybe that did something to my perception. But i am working on it, like I always do.
So to update, my favorite food was American Chinese Food, and now, BLEH, I cannot stand it. It makes me sick eating it and looking at it. The oils are to much for me. (total different story with native Chinese food, which its mostly steam food rice and veggies) I cannot eat anything fried, because I get sick. (it is a good thing because it keeps me away from even trying) Sugar makes me sleepy. Yes, ain't that weird. Anything with 5grams of sugar or more, I go into a “comma” I fall asleep for at least an hour. So I try to stay away from Sugary stuff, I try sugar free and that gives me horrible gas. (can’t win) So I am trying to stay away from sugar free candy and pasties, but its hard since I used to eat sweets all the time for so many years. When the sweet tooth attacks, I discovered Low sugar Frosted Flakes, OMG, my savior. Low sugar versions of my favorites are awesome.
Before I wouldn't wear any clothes that were sleeveless, now, its the same. My under arms are very “droopy” from all the weight lost and all the excess skin. My abdomen its very wrinkly and my inner tights as well. I can feel my rib cage and collar bone, and my hip bones and all my bones for that matter. I no longer have to wear wide shoes, just regular size, my ring size went from size 11 to 8.5 I can wear all bangles and watches.
On another note, since food was my addiction, I have taken on another addiction, Shopping. I have a problem with Online shopping.I keep taking on crafts....
I also developed severe anxiety, I hate going out alone, and I i go into panic when there are to many people around me. (not sure why)
Oh also, you know that doctors usually say “you pain its due to all the weight you are carrying” Well, I truly believe they are wrong. All this weight gone and all my pains from my joints and my back are getting worst. My coccyx bone “tail bone” always hurt when i sit down for short periods of time: that seems to be very common withing people that has had the weight loss surgery. My sleep apnea its relived, but my depression its worst. I feel it creeping in all the time, but I refuse to take more pills. My friend recently suggested to take 5-HTP, so I started to take that yesterday so lets see if it helps. I am dependent of Iron and multiple vitamins for life, and I continue to have to drink 64 ounces of water a day.
The biggest problem its to learn to love my new me. I have to get pass the imperfections and focus on all the good I have. Maybe because of all the years of people putting me down because of my weight even when I wasn't Severely obese, maybe that did something to my perception. But i am working on it, like I always do.
