Fight

I understand now why so many of you want your op private and don't tell everyone. I told everyone and I even have a blog for it, but know I find myself defending my decision at every turn. People are not well inform about this surgery and they have so many misconceptions and thoughts behind it. It's like a battle for me now. People keep saying to me "you don't need it" or "you can die" or why don't you just do this and that. I'm getting a little sick of it, defending this has become my work. Even some of my relative have turn against me. "If you lost 25 pounds on your own you can so more" they have no idea what really goes into this, they have no idea why are we doing this, they are clueless on why we NEED this. But as long as I know, I guess I can keep fighting and eventually win my own battle. If it were so easy don't you think I would of been skinny already!? I mean how hard is to go and find information before you go judging a person.


UPDATE:
I also got my Cpap machine yesterday. I tried it out for 5 hours last night but I couldn't fall asleep. I took it off, fell asleep, woke up and used it for a few hours before waking up completely   I am hoping tonight its a better night and that I am getting used to it. 

Why do I love myself?

Why do I love myself?

Because.....

I always pick myself up when I fall down.

When I cry, I can wipe my own tears.

My children can look up to me.

I never give up trying.

When I want something I am determined to get it.

I know when to get help.

I know that is OK to cry, even for small things, because it shows that I am human.

I learn fast.

I am doing things to better my life, physically and mentally.

I know what my limits are. 

When I don't like something, I simply stop doing it.

I realize there is no point on doing something you hate, its bad for my health. 

When everyone is focused on striving and being better than others, I focused on making myself happy and being myself. 

I accept others as they are.

I listen to my children

I give second chances, sometimes thirds.

I don't allow other to put me down anymore.

I am smart.

I love life even thou sometimes I feel like mine is not so great.

When I think its over, I find a reason to continue.

I trust until someone betrays me.

I have lovely cheeks.

I have try many things and learned them well. 

I am organize when i need to be. 

I observe and sense people’s feelings.

I can make time for others even if its just one text. 

I can hide pain and dislikes behind my smile, but just so I don't hurt any ones feelings.

I take others feelings into consideration. 

New Facebook Book

I created a facebook group with the idea that We can share our accomplishments, pictures, stories anything about of surgeries. Everyone that is thinking of having the weight loss surgery is welcome to come join us, and share your story and your accomplishments.

The group is secret so you can't search it nor see it unless you are a member. Therefore you will have to send me a message with your email, so I can invite you to the group. The invite will be sent via email and then you will be able to join the group. No one can see your postings unless they are in the group. 

You can also post your email and I will send you and invite.